Seven Spanish Angels: Dying for Love

Many of you have found yourselves recently unraveling and releasing a particularly dense layer of the knots and entanglements of what you call love and what we call violence. (We are not particularly referencing sexual or physical violence, although that’s part of it, and has nothing to do with love.)

More specifically, what we are referencing, is a release of old programs and patterns around codependence and attachments in relationships–between romantic partners, parents and children,  with siblings, and even with animals–all sorts of configurations.  Many of you are experiencing the part of you who feels you would die without another person or that the other person will die without you.  Or you’re currently without the other person and still waiting for them–waiting for them to come back, waiting for them to see the error of their ways and change, waiting for them to rescue you, waiting for them to make you safe.  Or you are considering leaving a relationship and cannot bear to do so.  You fear that the other person will not survive without you.  Or you just lost someone, irretrievably–and you’re clearing grief from attachment and the belief that if that being isn’t in our life you won’t be able to survive.

Most of these beliefs have been buried so far below the surface of your consciousness by most of you that you haven’t allowed yourself access to them.  Many of you consider yourself evolved human beings, far enough along on the “spiritual” path that you don’t have codependent relationships or you “know better,” so how could it be that you find yourself waiting to be rescued or afraid to leave your partner or some version of this?  Or, if you’ve allowed yourself to access the dilemma of attachment, you have shamed yourself terribly for being stuck in a pattern that is so “un-evolved.”

You’re all at different places with this. There’s no right or wrong.  Nothing that anyone need be shaming themselves for.  We are–and this time is–just offering you an opportunity to acknowledge where you are holding attachments.  In fact, rejoice that this is now in your awareness and know that until you release you will probably make things pretty uncomfortable for yourself–not as a punishment, but to bring attention to where you’re holding false beliefs. You’re showing yourself, in the utter disharmony of the relationship or the in the sense of constriction or obligation or guilt, where there’s some erroneous belief operating.  The belief is usually connected at its core to some very primal fears–I will die or the other person will die if we’re not together.  (That could be that you would perish financially or professionally or be saddled with all the child/parent care or…but even underlying those circumstances is a primal fear of death that comes from separation.)  This can extend to animals, too.

It will become increasingly difficult to stay in relationships based on attachment, codependency, obligation, and guilt, and there is an emerging sense in the collective about the violence of such attachments.  This is not to say that we think it is wrong to be in a marriage or partnership, to raise children, or care for animals.  But rather, we are saying that the nature of your relationships are changing–more quickly than some of you realize.  And the nature of this time is empowering you to look at the beliefs and the spoken and unspoken agreements that keep you anything less than free.

For all of you releasing the old memories and patterns–and all of you are–we are sending you much love. We honor your journey towards fully-embodied sovereignty.

~Green Tara (and a multitude of guides)

He looked down into her brown eyes
And said “say a prayer for me”
She threw her arms around him
Whispered, “God will keep us free”
They could hear the riders comin’
He said, “this is my last fight
If they take me back to Texas
They won’t take me back alive”

There were seven Spanish angels
At the altar of the sun
They were prayin’ for the lovers
In the valley of the gun
When the battle stopped and the smoke cleared
There was thunder from the throne
And seven Spanish angels
Took another angel home

She reached down and picked the gun up
That lay smokin’ in his hand
She said, “Father, please forgive me
I can’t make it without my man”
And she knew the gun was empty
And she knew she couldn’t win
But her final prayer was answered
When the rifles fired again

There were seven Spanish angels
At the altar of the sun
They were prayin’ for the lovers
In the valley of the gun
When the battle stopped and the smoke cleared
There was thunder from the throne
And seven Spanish angels
Took another angel home

 

Energy Update: Polarity and The Book of Blank Maps

Sending everyone a big wave of love. These are wild and uncharted waters we’ve been navigating, particularly these past two weeks. Lee Harris spoke of this in an energy update today and he referred to “extreme pulses of growing consciousness right now, emotionally and energetically, as we move between dark and light at greater speeds.” That’s definitely been my experience–so extreme that I sometimes feel a sense of whiplash, moving from higher vibrational experiences then crashing into shadow material, abruptly. I’m holding most of this within the awareness and experience of my multi-dimensionality, but this has not prevented me–nor does it prevent any of us–from also experiencing the polarities and wondering, at least momentarily, what the fuck is going on.

Those of us who are walking in both worlds (multiple worlds, really) are called not to abandon one reality for another. We might choose to place our focus on one experience or another, but not from a place of judging any experience as good or bad.

So, if you are finding that your life has you on your knees recently, know that your soul has taken over the steering wheel and intends to deliver you to new territory. The kicker is that there is no travel itinerary and the maps are blank. You may feel lost or that something terrible is happening, but you’re not doing anything wrong–it’s a very profound opportunity for deep and rapid integration of some of the darkest shadows–fear, anger, grief, the desire to control, as well a sense of victimization. If you’re in resistance, start by giving yourself permission to be there. This is not the week for spiritually bypassing by trying to meditate or visualize your way out of emotions or circumstances. Let the tears come. Hold yourself gently. Offer yourself more love than you ever have. If you’re still fighting, scream to loud music, clean out the closets and throw shit away! If you can keep your heart open, consider a wild round of sex with your partner or yourself! Seriously.

This is the primordial energy of creation that wants to move through you. This is not convenient energy. This is not the energy of bliss. This is the energy of breakdown and release. It is intense and challenging, particularly as the moon waxes to full next Tuesday. But it is designed to bring you to new shores that support you in your soul’s fullest expression.

If you find yourself stuck in the shadow emotions and none of the tools in your toolbox seem to work, it’s time to switch your approach. Reach out to someone for assistance. The energy of this week is demanding we try something new. The good news is that when we recognize that life is trying to steer us in a new direction and we finally surrender, energy starts to flow again. And very quickly. Will you be able to see the solution or the long game? Not necessarily, but you will be riding the waves instead of smashed by them.

For those of you who are holding a bit more steady: thank you for your service. To paraphrase a meme I’ve seen floating around lately, it helps when not everyone in your tribe loses their shit on the same day. (Thank you Merry for the energy work today; it made all the difference!)

Tara has prompted me to start offering intuitive guidance in group sessions. I am finalizing plans for twice-monthly teleconferences. We benefit from hearing each other’s experiences and from the guidance that each receives. We’ll make new connections and inspire each other when we come together. The energies are shifting rapidly now and this format provides an affordable way for us to connect, tap into a wider perspective, and to surf the waves. I’ll be writing about this opportunity soon. In the meantime, if you are interested in a personal session or have questions about the group sessions, drop me an email: theresa.luttenegger@gmail.com.

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