I am the imaginary hero of my hope
lost between verbs that require I know
who I am, but I am just a passing thought —
yet somehow, somehow — as close to a
miracle as we get — the nature
of the heart — the Beloved
from Breaking the Drought
The Aries full moon is exact at 9:23 p.m. Pacific, Saturday, October 15th. It is cresting like a wave in exact conjunction with the asteroid Eris (named for the Greek goddess of discord, known for its ability to create identity crisis and a profound restructuring of reality) and the planet Uranus, known as the “great awakener.” Uranus is considered to embody the energy of revolution, invention, electricity, and lightning-quick insight. In short, we can all expect the unexpected.
There are many layers to this full moon energetically, including a spotlight on the release of the rage of the wounded feminine, but it is important to remember that the primordial force of the dark feminine, is, in fact, the energy of destruction in service to life. One caution, however. Although the release of old energy is a necessary and integral step in transformation, it is not the time to perpetuate the ancient story we have already survived. The release of the energy is just that—release. It enables us to more fully anchor the energy of the awakened feminine and, if there are stories to tell, let’s tell the story of the time when earth fully healed the wounds and the split between the masculine and the feminine. If we do not start writing and living that story, who will?
In spite of the volatile potentials of this moon, what the guides are emphasizing to me is a seminal opportunity for each of us to receive, in fact, to be blown open to the direct experience of our true nature—which is completely indescribable, and, to our egos, the greatest single source of identity crisis and discord imaginable. I love how Stephen Levine, teacher and pioneer in the field of death and dying, wrote of just this:
Many have gone mad looking for a solid center, but there is none.
We think of centering as only a continual narrowing of focus until we touch the pearl, but in practice it is often a continual expansion of focus until we become the ocean.
Our center is vast space, boundless awareness indistinguishable from unconditional love.
Of course I play the fool when I dare allow consciousness to describe itself. Isn’t that the birth of the ego, the “I am this,” that closed behind us when we entered the body?
Another way to describe the illumination (full moon) of awakening (Uranus) conjoined with discord, chaos, and identity crisis (Eris) is to say, in one way or another, we will come face to face with an evolving reality that has energetically shifted to reveal the quantum field. This, too, is a description of our true nature. We may only glimpse it in a lightning flash to begin with, but we are certain to see the veil drop in one way or another. At the quantum level, reality does not exist if you are not looking at it. In other words, subatomic particles, like electrons, exist in a murky state of possibility and possess the ability to be anywhere, everywhere or nowhere at all. To the ego that is quite a shock! We really are Spirit dreaming itself into being. What appears to be solid and permanent (including the self) is quite uncertain. It is only through intention and attention we create reality.
For some, the events just preceding and following this full moon will masquerade as crisis and, yes, destruction of old structures, systems, relationships, and constructs as the Moon squares Mars in its approach to Pluto in Capricorn, just hours before it opposes the Sun. Capricorn represents all of our old, solid (and often outdated) structures, including government and there is quite the potential for unexpected revelations. In our personal lives, some of us may feel as though the earth has been pulled from under our feet. It has been during these moments when I remember the words of my heart teacher, Chogyam Trungpa: “The bad news is you’re falling through the air with nothing to hang onto. The good news is there’s no ground.”
The Sabian symbol for the full moon at 24° Aries offers a softer perspective—and the healing balm—for an awakening that could be potentially jarring: “Blown inward by the wind, the curtains of an open window take the shape of a cornucopia.” Dane Rudhyar, the celebrated 20th transpersonal astrologer elaborated: “Wind blows from a region of high pressure to one of low pressure. As the window curtains are blown inward, the individual consciousness represented by the house is receiving a more concentrated influx of spiritual energies, enabling this consciousness to extend the scope of its awareness and creative expression.” Thus, the Sabian symbol points to the fundamental wealth and abundance created through the primordial union of the masculine (bliss/the wind/form/active penetration) and the feminine (emptiness/the house/the womb/the receptive.)
The illusion of separation is not only revealed it is healed.
Whoever you are: in the evening step out
of your room, where you know everything;
yours is the last house before the far-off:
whoever you are.
With your eyes, which in their weariness
barely free themselves from the worn-out threshold,
you lift very slowly one black tree
and place it against the sky: slender, alone.
And you have made the world. And it is huge
and like a word which grows ripe in silence.
And as your will seizes on its meaning,
tenderly your eyes let it go…
–Rainer Maria Rilke
The Book of Images